....that has been my life the last few days....packing...sneezing....sneezing...rereading old journals (lol, oh, MY WORD)...packing...craziness.
aiight. Anyone ever takin' a shuttle before? So, like, I'm moving my life out to SoCal, only for me to be the most terrified of TAKING A SHUTTLE FROM THE AIRPORT TO DEAN'S HOUSE....OH MY WORD! Yeah, um, that's it. Like, what if I get stranded at LAX? Plus, I do not have a cell phone...etc. etc. I know, I KNOW...the Lord keeps reminding me that HE is in charge. And that's He's in charge of the weather. I keep getting terrified that like, there's gonna be a major storm in ME or PA...and I'll get stranded!! BUT IT'S ALL IN HIS CONTROL!
anyways...my dad is waiting in the car....and it's winter...and I'm at the library. Did you all know that? anyways, peace, out kids. thanks for the comments!
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Monday, December 19, 2005
OH, MY WORD!!
SO, IT DEFINITELY TOOK OVER AN HOUR TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO PUT THAT STINKIN' LIL' PIC OF ME IN THAT STINKIN' LIL CORNER YO'!
There, I got it out. For those of you that wanted to see the pics of my new "do", there you go. For you girls...I can style my hair quite a few different ways: my friend Alison did this one. For those of you that were scared, "See: it's not that bad!"
well...I go "home home" tomorrow. So that'll be weird, but it's good. Get to go see my friend Matt (alison's bro) play ball tonight...I'm so excited!! It's been so long since I've been to a game!! Ever excited me!
There, I got it out. For those of you that wanted to see the pics of my new "do", there you go. For you girls...I can style my hair quite a few different ways: my friend Alison did this one. For those of you that were scared, "See: it's not that bad!"
well...I go "home home" tomorrow. So that'll be weird, but it's good. Get to go see my friend Matt (alison's bro) play ball tonight...I'm so excited!! It's been so long since I've been to a game!! Ever excited me!
Friday, December 16, 2005
A PREVIOUS SUBJECT.
Now, I know that I've brought this up before, but I just wanted to see all of your guys' view on this: Christians that swear.
Now, here's my thing: You can stand there and tell me that words are just words (yet Jehovah says to not take His name in vain), and that it's just a cultural thing. But is it really? What is in our hearts flows out thru our lips. And that, my friend, is scripture also. Even in the secular world, swearing is considered ill-mannered in respectable situations...so why is that Christians sometimes swear--or even make it a lifestyle?
Now, when I was younger, I used to have a problem with swearing. But I always knew that it was wrong, and it truly was always coming from the pit of me. IT WAS IN MY HEART!! Anger, bitterness.....I'm humble enough to admit that...Now, Philippians 4:8 tells us to THINK and MEDITATE on that which is pure, lovely, admirable, HONORABLE, etc...is swearing that? The answer is clearly NO!!
And, which reminds me, why are we as Christians so afraid of that verse? I remember not liking that verse, even just a few years ago, because I thought it meant that I would be bored every day of my life. But is that not how our Enemy works? Thinking that the Christian life is boring? Like, many believe that heaven is just going to be us on clouds, playing the harp--but O! How it WON'T be so!! Heaven will be a party! A feast! Each of us having new names....the Word tells us that heaven is BEYOND our comprehension!! Oh my word, I'm rambling...
well, that's that. And hey: i'm 99% sure that I'll have an apartment a few weeks after I'm there!! (I just have to save money for me to move in!)
hey: comment, eh?
Now, here's my thing: You can stand there and tell me that words are just words (yet Jehovah says to not take His name in vain), and that it's just a cultural thing. But is it really? What is in our hearts flows out thru our lips. And that, my friend, is scripture also. Even in the secular world, swearing is considered ill-mannered in respectable situations...so why is that Christians sometimes swear--or even make it a lifestyle?
Now, when I was younger, I used to have a problem with swearing. But I always knew that it was wrong, and it truly was always coming from the pit of me. IT WAS IN MY HEART!! Anger, bitterness.....I'm humble enough to admit that...Now, Philippians 4:8 tells us to THINK and MEDITATE on that which is pure, lovely, admirable, HONORABLE, etc...is swearing that? The answer is clearly NO!!
And, which reminds me, why are we as Christians so afraid of that verse? I remember not liking that verse, even just a few years ago, because I thought it meant that I would be bored every day of my life. But is that not how our Enemy works? Thinking that the Christian life is boring? Like, many believe that heaven is just going to be us on clouds, playing the harp--but O! How it WON'T be so!! Heaven will be a party! A feast! Each of us having new names....the Word tells us that heaven is BEYOND our comprehension!! Oh my word, I'm rambling...
well, that's that. And hey: i'm 99% sure that I'll have an apartment a few weeks after I'm there!! (I just have to save money for me to move in!)
hey: comment, eh?
Thursday, December 15, 2005
the Talent Department
Well, it's really, REALLY officical now folks: I will be a Talent Recruiter (Or Talent Representative) with the Continentals, in Ventura, California, beginning January 3rd! I may already even have an apartment! (w/ a bed--yea!!!!!!!)
I'm sooooooooooooooooooooo incredible excited about this.
Sorry I can't write more...but I've had an exhausting afternoon: talking with Jesus about this...all the phone calls w/ the office today....I can't wait to sleep! I love it!
I'm sooooooooooooooooooooo incredible excited about this.
Sorry I can't write more...but I've had an exhausting afternoon: talking with Jesus about this...all the phone calls w/ the office today....I can't wait to sleep! I love it!
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
LIKE THE NEW LOOK?
Like the new look? I do!! I discovered it today!!
Have a great book for ya'll to read: "Seizing Your Divine Moment", by Erwin Raphael McManus. It's an awesome book. He uses Scripture to show us how the Lord's will for us is not for us to just sit around and wait for His voice necessarily, and to wait for Him to make choices for us!! We are the choice makers!! It's amazing!!
(Hey Erin, did you notice I added you to my links? love ya' girlfriend! And am praying for you!)
Ahh...so I got to talk with my friend Omar on the phone yesterday....it was GREAT! And then my friend Josh called...and then today I talked with my girl Alison!! I've never talked to so many people on the phone in that short of time! Craziness!! Such a girl I am...
Missing tour a little. Not the exhaustion: not the sandwiches, and not even the performing: just missin' some of my peeps. "Abba, thank You sooooo much for being so amazing and bringing such people into my life. May I be as humble and as much of an encouragement to them as they are to me. Amen."
Did I ever mention how much I love prayer? Talking with the Only, Almight Jehovah, and Jesus...and Holy Spirit (all at once!) is just incredible!!
Have a great book for ya'll to read: "Seizing Your Divine Moment", by Erwin Raphael McManus. It's an awesome book. He uses Scripture to show us how the Lord's will for us is not for us to just sit around and wait for His voice necessarily, and to wait for Him to make choices for us!! We are the choice makers!! It's amazing!!
(Hey Erin, did you notice I added you to my links? love ya' girlfriend! And am praying for you!)
Ahh...so I got to talk with my friend Omar on the phone yesterday....it was GREAT! And then my friend Josh called...and then today I talked with my girl Alison!! I've never talked to so many people on the phone in that short of time! Craziness!! Such a girl I am...
Missing tour a little. Not the exhaustion: not the sandwiches, and not even the performing: just missin' some of my peeps. "Abba, thank You sooooo much for being so amazing and bringing such people into my life. May I be as humble and as much of an encouragement to them as they are to me. Amen."
Did I ever mention how much I love prayer? Talking with the Only, Almight Jehovah, and Jesus...and Holy Spirit (all at once!) is just incredible!!
Friday, December 09, 2005
IT'S OFFICIAL.
IT'S OFFICIAL:
On January 2nd (or thereabout), I will be flying to California on a one-way ticket...following the Lord's path with an office job w/the Continentals. I was interviewed at about 2 am your time...and accepted the job. I am unsure as to which job I will have, but I will know by next Tuesday, at the latest, I believe.
Tour was amazing. Fiji made my trip. I know I already said that: but it did. It just sort of "brought everything to light" for me.
Though there was a period of time filled with spiritual attacks and depression, the Lord was with me and saw me through. Though there were times of pride and selfishness, the Lord rebuked and saw me through. Through the times of sweet, pure laughter and innocence, the Lord was with me and smiled with me. Though I am scared beyond belief of my life for the next two years: the Lord is with me and will see me through. I am convinced that He has even more in store for me by following His leading to Cali. I am excited. Wow. This is my life....a little girl who used to get homesick just 20 min. away from home, to LW in Maine, to New Hampshire, New York, Bible School, PEI, Canada, to 22 states, New Zealand and Fiji, to Cali....but more than this. The Lord has allowed me to "glimpse eternity"
...May He show me more. "I love you Lord, and pray to always be amazed when speaking of You, and talking with You."
On January 2nd (or thereabout), I will be flying to California on a one-way ticket...following the Lord's path with an office job w/the Continentals. I was interviewed at about 2 am your time...and accepted the job. I am unsure as to which job I will have, but I will know by next Tuesday, at the latest, I believe.
Tour was amazing. Fiji made my trip. I know I already said that: but it did. It just sort of "brought everything to light" for me.
Though there was a period of time filled with spiritual attacks and depression, the Lord was with me and saw me through. Though there were times of pride and selfishness, the Lord rebuked and saw me through. Through the times of sweet, pure laughter and innocence, the Lord was with me and smiled with me. Though I am scared beyond belief of my life for the next two years: the Lord is with me and will see me through. I am convinced that He has even more in store for me by following His leading to Cali. I am excited. Wow. This is my life....a little girl who used to get homesick just 20 min. away from home, to LW in Maine, to New Hampshire, New York, Bible School, PEI, Canada, to 22 states, New Zealand and Fiji, to Cali....but more than this. The Lord has allowed me to "glimpse eternity"
...May He show me more. "I love you Lord, and pray to always be amazed when speaking of You, and talking with You."
Saturday, December 03, 2005
ALMOST OVER....
WELL, it's hard to believe that it's over in about 48 hours. We'll leave for the airport at about 3 or 4 in the morning.....yeah, that's what I was thinking. But actually, the last night, we don't go to bed. You stay up all night to enjoy the last few hours with each other, so that's really exciting.
so, sorry to disappoint you jonny, but not too many exciting stories. We did a lot of driving, and performing...but we did see quite a bit of "RINGS" stuff, so that was cool....which reminds me:0)
FIJI....now that was amazing. For the first time in my life, I told the Lord that I would be a full time missionary if He wanted me to be. Awesome, eh? I don't know if that's where the Lord is taking me, but we'll see.
So, I still haven't been interviewed with the Continentals yet:), but I should be soon. This is what I really want to do guys...even though it may take me far away. Please pray that the Lord's will will be done though!!
so, sorry to disappoint you jonny, but not too many exciting stories. We did a lot of driving, and performing...but we did see quite a bit of "RINGS" stuff, so that was cool....which reminds me:0)
FIJI....now that was amazing. For the first time in my life, I told the Lord that I would be a full time missionary if He wanted me to be. Awesome, eh? I don't know if that's where the Lord is taking me, but we'll see.
So, I still haven't been interviewed with the Continentals yet:), but I should be soon. This is what I really want to do guys...even though it may take me far away. Please pray that the Lord's will will be done though!!
Friday, November 11, 2005
7 DAYS!!
7 DAYS 'TIL I LEAVE FOR NEW ZEALAND!!
Please pray for safety--and sleep!! We actually lose a total day, 'cause we cross the INTERNATIONAL DATE LINE...but then we gain one on the way back...real weird.
in Alburquerque, New Mexico right now!! Enjoy life!!
Please pray for safety--and sleep!! We actually lose a total day, 'cause we cross the INTERNATIONAL DATE LINE...but then we gain one on the way back...real weird.
in Alburquerque, New Mexico right now!! Enjoy life!!
Friday, November 04, 2005
ERIN B.
Erin B.: trust me darlin': I'll be visiting. I don't have money, nor do I have transportation: but I've been goin' thru MAD withdrawals. And since you NEVER email me, I have to ask you 2 questions on this: A. Where in the world is Paul? The kid has not emailed me since June. No joke. and B. Where's Jordan? It's been even longer...and he won't respond to any emails that I send him. I miss him a lot. Gosh.
But you almost made me cry when you mentioned Els. Please tell her that I love her and miss her and Bob. And Carolyn and Kevin too. Hey: so Shira was supposed to come see me, but ended up not being able to. That was really sad. I love you Erin B.: FOREVA!
But you almost made me cry when you mentioned Els. Please tell her that I love her and miss her and Bob. And Carolyn and Kevin too. Hey: so Shira was supposed to come see me, but ended up not being able to. That was really sad. I love you Erin B.: FOREVA!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Digital Cameras.
I know, I know: Digital cameras are the best. TOO BAD SHAUNA DOESN'T HAVE ONE!! So, mark it down: Shauna wishes she had a digi. Gosh people. BUT, I don't have a computer or anything to print pics off or any of that.
So, I'm in Missouri right now. Tomorrow: Kansas. Wow: insane. i think I have 4 rolls of film already...did I tell you that my camera got caught in the atlantic ocean? well, a few waves came over it....I don't know if those pics will come out...which will make me really, really sad. BUT....did I mention I go to New Zealand in 14 days? We're going to the Shire...and hangin' with the Somoans....AND : we get to ride in a ZORB. Basically, just think those balls that hamsters chill in: and that's what I'll be doin': for $29. Ridiculous price: but hey, it's once in a lifetime.
hey ya'll...pray that we get to have a video of our performance. I don't think we do: but I really want one. Then you guys can see me!!
love you all. Thanks for the prayers. They mean everything to me.
"God is most glorified in us, when we are most satisfied in Him." -John Piper
So, I'm in Missouri right now. Tomorrow: Kansas. Wow: insane. i think I have 4 rolls of film already...did I tell you that my camera got caught in the atlantic ocean? well, a few waves came over it....I don't know if those pics will come out...which will make me really, really sad. BUT....did I mention I go to New Zealand in 14 days? We're going to the Shire...and hangin' with the Somoans....AND : we get to ride in a ZORB. Basically, just think those balls that hamsters chill in: and that's what I'll be doin': for $29. Ridiculous price: but hey, it's once in a lifetime.
hey ya'll...pray that we get to have a video of our performance. I don't think we do: but I really want one. Then you guys can see me!!
love you all. Thanks for the prayers. They mean everything to me.
"God is most glorified in us, when we are most satisfied in Him." -John Piper
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Salisbury, Maryland
Well, here I am in Maryland, today and tomorrow. Oh, all my PEI peeps: I miss you all so much. I just want you all to know that.
I just realized today that I have no idea what I'm doing when I go home in a month and a half: hey Erin--can I come live with you? Just kidding...
oh dear: New Zealand will be seeing me on November 16th. Oh dear. Pray for me:0) I'm excited!! Please pray as I still need $148.31 cents in before I leave!!
love you all.
wish I had a digi!
I just realized today that I have no idea what I'm doing when I go home in a month and a half: hey Erin--can I come live with you? Just kidding...
oh dear: New Zealand will be seeing me on November 16th. Oh dear. Pray for me:0) I'm excited!! Please pray as I still need $148.31 cents in before I leave!!
love you all.
wish I had a digi!
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
NORTH CAROLINA
ahh...North Carolina....home of the infamous TAR HEELS and.....WAKE FOREST.....and all that awesomeness.
soo....my Canadian friends: how happy are we that there's hockey??!!
yes...so....life. Continentals: quite the experience. I have not decided if I will tour again: my instinct is to say yes: because it's such an amazing experience....the places....the people....seeing God work. But I've found that it makes me very self-concious: something that I don't really need anymore of....but at the same time....oh, I just don't know. I think the Lord just wants me to focus on today (tonight actually).
ERIN: I'm sorry that I don't blog more: WHY DON"T YOU EMAIL MORE!!?? Life is tiring at night: adrenaline for 3 hours every night, to come home to hosts home and be asked tons of questions...to then email--and then blog? it's tough: but update me on you!! I miss you!! And everyone!! Gosh--I want to be there so badly!! I'm gonna' go read yours right now!!!
love you all!!
soo....my Canadian friends: how happy are we that there's hockey??!!
yes...so....life. Continentals: quite the experience. I have not decided if I will tour again: my instinct is to say yes: because it's such an amazing experience....the places....the people....seeing God work. But I've found that it makes me very self-concious: something that I don't really need anymore of....but at the same time....oh, I just don't know. I think the Lord just wants me to focus on today (tonight actually).
ERIN: I'm sorry that I don't blog more: WHY DON"T YOU EMAIL MORE!!?? Life is tiring at night: adrenaline for 3 hours every night, to come home to hosts home and be asked tons of questions...to then email--and then blog? it's tough: but update me on you!! I miss you!! And everyone!! Gosh--I want to be there so badly!! I'm gonna' go read yours right now!!!
love you all!!
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
EAST COAST....HERE I AM....
Hey there ya'll!!
Sittin' here, chillaxin in good ole' Jacksonville, Florida. I have finally made it to the east coast!! Unbelievable!!
So I got to see some friends tonight!! My friend Amy lives in JAX....and gosh--it was so good to see you!! Love you girl!! and my friend Jill--she's here in JAX goin' to school!!
I don't really know what to say. I would have to say: the Lord is teaching me patience. I'm actually a pretty patient person when it comes to A LOT of things...but this whole "being-surrounded-24/7-with-the-same-person" thing is getting kind of old. But it's enjoyable.
well, I wasn't going to write this: but....I really have no idea if the Lord will bring me back to do continentals again: but if so...I would like to do NEXT FALL: they have a tour that goes to Great Britain....and stuff....and that's been on my heart. So, I don't know...but, if ya'll could just pray.....
xoxoxoxo
me
Sittin' here, chillaxin in good ole' Jacksonville, Florida. I have finally made it to the east coast!! Unbelievable!!
So I got to see some friends tonight!! My friend Amy lives in JAX....and gosh--it was so good to see you!! Love you girl!! and my friend Jill--she's here in JAX goin' to school!!
I don't really know what to say. I would have to say: the Lord is teaching me patience. I'm actually a pretty patient person when it comes to A LOT of things...but this whole "being-surrounded-24/7-with-the-same-person" thing is getting kind of old. But it's enjoyable.
well, I wasn't going to write this: but....I really have no idea if the Lord will bring me back to do continentals again: but if so...I would like to do NEXT FALL: they have a tour that goes to Great Britain....and stuff....and that's been on my heart. So, I don't know...but, if ya'll could just pray.....
xoxoxoxo
me
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Martindale, TX
So one thing that the Lord has shown me today, is that, well, I'm not much of a touchy person anymore, which is really funny, 'cause I used to be, just a few years ago. And still am...but not really. Maybe it's because it's been over 100 degrees the last few days: and we have to wear pants/capri's and toe covered shoes at ALL times, but whatev.
yeah, wow...the last couple of days performances have been a couple of my best: PERFECT? HECK NO....but the confidence is totally starting to come along.
I still sort of can't believe that I'm doing this. It's awesome to see where the Lord has brought me thru the years. We were driving thru San Antonio today, and I was like, "OH my word--I ate at that VERY Taco Cabana a few years ago---and oh my word--I went to the top of that tower thing". Wow...God is so cool: He so knows what He is doing, and He truly does have the best in mind. What scares me is when I remember that all things work together for HIS GLORY, maybe not necessarily for me and my glory. But you know what? I'm starting to understand that whatever brings Him glory: is what is best for me: whether it is painful or joyful. My word: He is Jehovah-Jireh, Elohim, Alpha and Omega: HE IS AMAZING.
love you all.
yeah, wow...the last couple of days performances have been a couple of my best: PERFECT? HECK NO....but the confidence is totally starting to come along.
I still sort of can't believe that I'm doing this. It's awesome to see where the Lord has brought me thru the years. We were driving thru San Antonio today, and I was like, "OH my word--I ate at that VERY Taco Cabana a few years ago---and oh my word--I went to the top of that tower thing". Wow...God is so cool: He so knows what He is doing, and He truly does have the best in mind. What scares me is when I remember that all things work together for HIS GLORY, maybe not necessarily for me and my glory. But you know what? I'm starting to understand that whatever brings Him glory: is what is best for me: whether it is painful or joyful. My word: He is Jehovah-Jireh, Elohim, Alpha and Omega: HE IS AMAZING.
love you all.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
EVER SORRY ME.
alright....ever sorry me.....
So we had our 6th day of touring today. Unbelievable. I'm in sunny, HOT, Arizona right now. I LOVE air condition, let me tell you.
so yes, I'm on tour. Hopefully I can update this more often, but honestly, it's hard to stay in touch: OH SO HARD. But it's going amazing. I'm not perfect, and please pray for that actually, as it's hard for me: seeing how I'm a perfectionist. Anyways....we'll be going to Katrina hit places in a few weeks, to perform and to lend a helping hand, so I'm thrilled to do that. And then we'll be in New Zealand and Figi in November (happy thanksgiving to ME!)....
anyways, love you all. Stay in touch.
peace, out.
So we had our 6th day of touring today. Unbelievable. I'm in sunny, HOT, Arizona right now. I LOVE air condition, let me tell you.
so yes, I'm on tour. Hopefully I can update this more often, but honestly, it's hard to stay in touch: OH SO HARD. But it's going amazing. I'm not perfect, and please pray for that actually, as it's hard for me: seeing how I'm a perfectionist. Anyways....we'll be going to Katrina hit places in a few weeks, to perform and to lend a helping hand, so I'm thrilled to do that. And then we'll be in New Zealand and Figi in November (happy thanksgiving to ME!)....
anyways, love you all. Stay in touch.
peace, out.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
I LIED....
Alright...so I lied!! So I rechecked my calendar--only for me to realize I had counted wrong!! So as of today (I'm pretty sure anyways, ) NOW I have 17 days left until tour!! And this is an update:
I received a $725 check from my counselors/staff here at camp: totally amazing. SO that's going to pay for my Rehearsal camp fee/ needed things for tour. Then, I got more money today in my check than I thought I would: So, that will be paying my parents back for my plane tickets/ MY INSURANCE!! And my insurance was the last MAJOR thing that I needed money for, besides my support money. (And I know that there is money on the way: from God, thru friends, and those who do not know!) Anyways, isn't God so good? Why do I ever doubt? My gosh--heaven will be amazing!! No more doubting!! I'm so excited!!
And camp is now done with: Campers left last night....staff weekend as of right now.....so I'm so excited to go run, (or nap, or both), take a long shower--and go roller-blading and bowling!! Ever pumped me.
It is official: I have the worst cold that I've ever had during the summer. But I refuse to let it ruin me!!
love you all, praying for you all. That's what I need to do: I need go make some time for Jesus!! I love Him!
I received a $725 check from my counselors/staff here at camp: totally amazing. SO that's going to pay for my Rehearsal camp fee/ needed things for tour. Then, I got more money today in my check than I thought I would: So, that will be paying my parents back for my plane tickets/ MY INSURANCE!! And my insurance was the last MAJOR thing that I needed money for, besides my support money. (And I know that there is money on the way: from God, thru friends, and those who do not know!) Anyways, isn't God so good? Why do I ever doubt? My gosh--heaven will be amazing!! No more doubting!! I'm so excited!!
And camp is now done with: Campers left last night....staff weekend as of right now.....so I'm so excited to go run, (or nap, or both), take a long shower--and go roller-blading and bowling!! Ever pumped me.
It is official: I have the worst cold that I've ever had during the summer. But I refuse to let it ruin me!!
love you all, praying for you all. That's what I need to do: I need go make some time for Jesus!! I love Him!
Congratulations to the new Mr. and Mrs. Nathan Little!! (Love you Celeste! Sorry I couldn't be there!!)
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Ya' think....
So, ya' think that with only 16 DAYS LEFT 'TIL I LEAVE FOR LOS ANGELES, that I'd be all extatic, and, well, I am, for the most part. 'Cept the fact that I have at least $3000 left that I need. Wait, hold on...
so, my summer is still going amazingly well....it has NOT been the easiest summer of my life, but it has been an incredible summer, all the same. Full of trials and testings, and wilderness times, and blessings that have overfilled my store house (malachai 3)....but I keep struggling with this same issue....
.....of $$.....I'm not particulary fond of this issue that the Lord deals with me on...and He's provided every other time of my life...but I guess that when I looked on the calendar today, and counted down, and remembered that according to them, you need to have your money in 2 weeks before you go...and well, 16-14=2...anyways....that's me. I've been in tears all day, because of my lack of faith in God. What is my problem?
love you all, praying for you all, too. Have a good day!
so, my summer is still going amazingly well....it has NOT been the easiest summer of my life, but it has been an incredible summer, all the same. Full of trials and testings, and wilderness times, and blessings that have overfilled my store house (malachai 3)....but I keep struggling with this same issue....
.....of $$.....I'm not particulary fond of this issue that the Lord deals with me on...and He's provided every other time of my life...but I guess that when I looked on the calendar today, and counted down, and remembered that according to them, you need to have your money in 2 weeks before you go...and well, 16-14=2...anyways....that's me. I've been in tears all day, because of my lack of faith in God. What is my problem?
love you all, praying for you all, too. Have a good day!
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
MY SUMMER SO FAR
So, yeah, definitely the key word for the summer is A-MAZING. God has totally "blown my socks off" these last few weeks: positively amazing....amazing. Not to say that I haven't had some low times, but God is good: no matter.
I have never worked with such an awesome counselling staff in my life. Totally rocks. Usually you have the 2-3 that have a passion for Christ--and it's totally the opposite here!! It's amazing!! (wow, I forgot how much I love typing!! random, I know:0) I miss Camp Hope, and all my "guests and campers", but I love my position here.
I'm one of 2 head female counselors/Asst. Program Directors. I'm not to into a lot of the "programming" stuff, but I love trying to be an encouragement to the counselors. It's a blast!! Definitely NOT always easy, as I have to be in authority (and with that, comes specific responsibilities and obligations), but it's all good. God is good.
As far as the Continentals go, I have a little under $3000 left to raise for support: but I also have the additional fees of going there: plane fees, $500 camp fee, spending money, etc. But God has me here! And hey: I NOW OWN A BRAND NEW DISCMAN!! all because of a couple I was talking with, and they somehow picked up on how I wanted one for when I fly--and they went out and bought me one!!!! GOD IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!!
Well, that's my life so far. I love my times with Jesus: I love looking forward to spending time with Him. I love how an hour and a half just isn't enough. I love Him.
well, I should go. Please, everyone--update me on you!!
I have never worked with such an awesome counselling staff in my life. Totally rocks. Usually you have the 2-3 that have a passion for Christ--and it's totally the opposite here!! It's amazing!! (wow, I forgot how much I love typing!! random, I know:0) I miss Camp Hope, and all my "guests and campers", but I love my position here.
I'm one of 2 head female counselors/Asst. Program Directors. I'm not to into a lot of the "programming" stuff, but I love trying to be an encouragement to the counselors. It's a blast!! Definitely NOT always easy, as I have to be in authority (and with that, comes specific responsibilities and obligations), but it's all good. God is good.
As far as the Continentals go, I have a little under $3000 left to raise for support: but I also have the additional fees of going there: plane fees, $500 camp fee, spending money, etc. But God has me here! And hey: I NOW OWN A BRAND NEW DISCMAN!! all because of a couple I was talking with, and they somehow picked up on how I wanted one for when I fly--and they went out and bought me one!!!! GOD IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!!
Well, that's my life so far. I love my times with Jesus: I love looking forward to spending time with Him. I love how an hour and a half just isn't enough. I love Him.
well, I should go. Please, everyone--update me on you!!
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
LIVING WATERS.....and ERIN B....
Okay ya'll: BIG NEWS FOR YOU: Shauna is spending her summer at Living Waters!! Can you believe it? 'cause I can't? It's quite a long story of how I have arrived to be there, but trust me, I am. I am their Female Head Counselor/ Asst. Program Director...unbelievable, eh? I'm QUITE excited at this challenge and new change of pace. NO MORE SLEEPING WITH CAMPERS!! J/k...well, sort of. I'm terrified, but I am so thrilled to step up to the plate with this!! oh yeah....Erin B...
My dearest Erin B.? EVERY TIME I EMAIL YOU IT COMES BACK!! SO YOU HAVE TO WRITE ME FIRST! (shaunamarie00@yahoo.com) Erin...I miss you so much! And yes--they're getting married! Aug. 20th? And guess what? I'm singing for them! I'm so excited: to sing for them and to see them get married and to see everyone else! (Now I just need to find a place to stay!:0) Anyways, Erin dear, I miss you terribly. I love you!!
Yup, so that's right everyone: My friends from PEI, Nathan and Celeste, are to wed in Aug!! I'm so excited for them! And it's funny, 'cause sometimes being single, when your best friends are married and having kids, I get kinda' lonely. But the Lord has really been showing me the last little while, just exactly the privilege it is to be single at this stage in my life!! I can do sooooooo much!! Thank you Lord! You truly know best!!
My dearest Erin B.? EVERY TIME I EMAIL YOU IT COMES BACK!! SO YOU HAVE TO WRITE ME FIRST! (shaunamarie00@yahoo.com) Erin...I miss you so much! And yes--they're getting married! Aug. 20th? And guess what? I'm singing for them! I'm so excited: to sing for them and to see them get married and to see everyone else! (Now I just need to find a place to stay!:0) Anyways, Erin dear, I miss you terribly. I love you!!
Yup, so that's right everyone: My friends from PEI, Nathan and Celeste, are to wed in Aug!! I'm so excited for them! And it's funny, 'cause sometimes being single, when your best friends are married and having kids, I get kinda' lonely. But the Lord has really been showing me the last little while, just exactly the privilege it is to be single at this stage in my life!! I can do sooooooo much!! Thank you Lord! You truly know best!!
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
I Still Don't Know Why....BUT....
So, I still don't know why I'm here in New Hampshire, but I am, and I know that this is where I am to be: for now at least. I work for Monadnock Bible Conference 2-3 days a week, doing some house cleaning....and I may be looking into a waitressing job in town, but we'll see. "So how do you know that you're supposed to be there, Shauna? And not somewhere else?" Honestly, I just know, because every other option doesn't even seem possible. But being here is. I've been given a place to live, food to eat, challenges, and hey: Guess what??!! I'M DRIVING!! That's right, here in New Hampshire there are not driving permits...just license's!! So I'm going for my license here!! I'm soooooooooo excited!!
sorry so short, but I'm going to go eat stuffed-crust pizza for the first time: EVER!!
sorry so short, but I'm going to go eat stuffed-crust pizza for the first time: EVER!!
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
WHERE AM I, LORD?
Okay ya'll: That's the point that I'm at right now: WHERE AM I, LORD? I feel sometimes that there is just ABSOLUTELY NOTHING that I can do: and at other times, I feel as though my life is my fault because of some laziness that I have: though I really haven't been. I may have the opportunity to be a nanny, I'm going to clean for Monadnock here, a couple days a week for the next week, plus, I'm calling Rite-Aid tomorrow, and calling a couple of contacts for a centre with children w/ disabilities. (I can't believe I just noticed that I spelt "centre" the Canadian way:0) So, ya'll can pray for me with this. Perhaps the Lord doesn't even want me to work this summer: maybe that's why I am having a hard time: it's all in the Lord's hands, and I am slowly getting that point.
Apparently, my Continentals stuff is in: So tomorrow I'll most likely be receiving my music to learn!! Ever pumped me! And oh....
I sang at the ARISE event, with my friend Andy, and his band. We performed a couple of his songs from his cd....it was such an interesting night. I had a hard time getting focused (I think b/c it had been so long since I've sang there), but finally, by the song "PRAISE ADONAI", my heart just sang for God, and it was amazing!! I love God soooooooo much!! We performed "It Is Well With My Soul", the Shane & Shane way, (really slow and beautiful), and it was so amazing to praise God during that song that all I wanted to do was drop on my knees and sing it and clap and shout for God!! HE IS LORD!
love ya'll.
Apparently, my Continentals stuff is in: So tomorrow I'll most likely be receiving my music to learn!! Ever pumped me! And oh....
I sang at the ARISE event, with my friend Andy, and his band. We performed a couple of his songs from his cd....it was such an interesting night. I had a hard time getting focused (I think b/c it had been so long since I've sang there), but finally, by the song "PRAISE ADONAI", my heart just sang for God, and it was amazing!! I love God soooooooo much!! We performed "It Is Well With My Soul", the Shane & Shane way, (really slow and beautiful), and it was so amazing to praise God during that song that all I wanted to do was drop on my knees and sing it and clap and shout for God!! HE IS LORD!
love ya'll.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Jobs.
hey there ya'll: this job hunting is hard. I now understand how hard it is for people to find decent jobs with decent pay: this is ridiculous. I applied to 5 places in Dover, NH: Rite-Aid, Brooks, Staples; Bed, Bath and Beyond and Hannaford's. The whole prospect of working in these places terrifies that begeebee's right out of: I can't even express it in words. I actually wish that I wasn't a lazy teenager and did work part-time during high school: I'm so scared, so scared.
so, right now, I'm babysitting Josiah: my friend's kid. (the same one as before.) Anyways, he's beautiful: and I'm going to cry when I have to say goodbye: if I have to. Perhaps I'll find a job here in Jaffrey or something. Who knows?! The Lord does!
So I have found my verses for the summer: Psalm 24:3-6. They're amazing. And I've decided to read no other book but the Bible from now 'til I return from the Continentals. The Word of God is what I should run to: not others, and not other books. I need a desire for His Word: I hunger for that. And it's awesome, 'cause the Lord has been teaching my mom that same lesson too, so it's cool.
well, I should get going. have a great day!:0)
so, right now, I'm babysitting Josiah: my friend's kid. (the same one as before.) Anyways, he's beautiful: and I'm going to cry when I have to say goodbye: if I have to. Perhaps I'll find a job here in Jaffrey or something. Who knows?! The Lord does!
So I have found my verses for the summer: Psalm 24:3-6. They're amazing. And I've decided to read no other book but the Bible from now 'til I return from the Continentals. The Word of God is what I should run to: not others, and not other books. I need a desire for His Word: I hunger for that. And it's awesome, 'cause the Lord has been teaching my mom that same lesson too, so it's cool.
well, I should get going. have a great day!:0)
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Back in the U.S.A.!!
Hey ya'll: sorry it's been so long since I've updated: quite a bit has happened. I am a recent graduate of New Brunswck Bible Institute, located in Canada. I now have my diploma of of Theological and Biblical Studies, along with a diploma of Advanced Biblical Ministries. It was such an emotional 4-5 days at the school: seeing some of my closest friends in the world for the last time, plus having to say goodbye to some from where I interned in PEI, Canada, plus, being totally physically, mentally and spiritually exhausted, PLUS, the realization that it is time for me to grow up. Needless to say, I'm exhausted.
I'm now in Jaffrey, New Hampshire, visiting and vacationing. My friends Bethany and Andy have a gorgeous 15 month old, Josiah, who brightens my countenance every time my eyes fall on him. I pray for my (perhaps) future children that they will light up the room as he does. Anyways, so after a couple weeks here, I will most likely return to Maine to get a job for the summer, so I can join the Continentals in the fall. (which reminds me, I need to mail a check!)
well, it's 10:40 pm, and I'm totally exhausted. Please, stay in contact ya'll.
I'm now in Jaffrey, New Hampshire, visiting and vacationing. My friends Bethany and Andy have a gorgeous 15 month old, Josiah, who brightens my countenance every time my eyes fall on him. I pray for my (perhaps) future children that they will light up the room as he does. Anyways, so after a couple weeks here, I will most likely return to Maine to get a job for the summer, so I can join the Continentals in the fall. (which reminds me, I need to mail a check!)
well, it's 10:40 pm, and I'm totally exhausted. Please, stay in contact ya'll.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
UNBELIEVABLE
Unbelievable eh? Everyone? One week today and I'm outtie' from this gorgeous island. That's right: Your island is now gorgeous because there's no snow really anywhere, and the weather is starting to warm up. (Like, whatever, 8 degrees Celesius is, lol.) Anyways...
I had 4 fillings done yesterday: I know, I know, ya'll probably think that I don't take care of my teeth: but I do. I HAVE to floss and brush every night, or I just can't sleep. It's because my wisdom teeth are all in, and they've pushed all my teeth closer together, making it impossible, no matter how much I brush or floss, to actually get where I'm supposed to get. Leanne, my dentist, has probably gone thru quite a few containers of floss just to do my teeth: and she's a dentist for pete's sake. Her office is soooooooo nice because there's a tv that you can watch (and with headphones, you can listen to), so yesterday, I watched 3 1/2 episodes of "The Cosby Show"--and I didn't even really care that my mouth was being held open by metal and by a "rubber dam" that barely let air into my body. lol, oh the memories I have from PEI. Actually, even on my last day here, Monday the 25th, I have an appointment...
The Lord is so awesome, eh? Like even though I'm dumb and have been struggling in my devotional life, He's still blessing me and teaching me. I've really been praying for the Lord to provide all of my support BEFORE summer, and I almost felt guilty praying for that, but the other day, I was either reading something or listening to a sermon, and it was a challenge to believe that God truly can do the miraculous: even when our faith is weak! OH! It was sunday school...anyways, yeah. We were talking about how we can trust the Lord with our souls, but we so often DON'T trust Him with the little things in our lives. Incredible: Thank You, Jesus: You're Awesome.
I had 4 fillings done yesterday: I know, I know, ya'll probably think that I don't take care of my teeth: but I do. I HAVE to floss and brush every night, or I just can't sleep. It's because my wisdom teeth are all in, and they've pushed all my teeth closer together, making it impossible, no matter how much I brush or floss, to actually get where I'm supposed to get. Leanne, my dentist, has probably gone thru quite a few containers of floss just to do my teeth: and she's a dentist for pete's sake. Her office is soooooooo nice because there's a tv that you can watch (and with headphones, you can listen to), so yesterday, I watched 3 1/2 episodes of "The Cosby Show"--and I didn't even really care that my mouth was being held open by metal and by a "rubber dam" that barely let air into my body. lol, oh the memories I have from PEI. Actually, even on my last day here, Monday the 25th, I have an appointment...
The Lord is so awesome, eh? Like even though I'm dumb and have been struggling in my devotional life, He's still blessing me and teaching me. I've really been praying for the Lord to provide all of my support BEFORE summer, and I almost felt guilty praying for that, but the other day, I was either reading something or listening to a sermon, and it was a challenge to believe that God truly can do the miraculous: even when our faith is weak! OH! It was sunday school...anyways, yeah. We were talking about how we can trust the Lord with our souls, but we so often DON'T trust Him with the little things in our lives. Incredible: Thank You, Jesus: You're Awesome.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
hello there ya'll. How ya' treatin' life? Well...anyways...so I finished my last course!! Praise the Lord!! So, now I've already read one novel, and am almost half way thru the other, and it's only been about 5 days!! I LOVE READING!! We have only 2 more episodes to watch of the 2nd season of "24", which thrills me: I had a hard time breathing last night. And on American Idol last night, did anyone else think that Carrie Underwood kicked some serious butt on "love is a battlefield"? What was Simon's problem? Sure, she has to do something besides use her hips...but that'll come. anyways, what else. Oh, our first WORSHIP EVENT was this past Sunday, the 10th: absolutely amazing. I love worshipping thru singing: I love how the Lord allows us to worship thru our bodies. What a privilege it is!!
well, I'm done with that randomness now. I'm now down to 10 days 'til I'm done work, and and maybe only 11 'til I go home. My friend Cass maybe coming earlier: which would be amazing!! I'm so sad to say goodbye to some of these people...especially some of the women: it'll be real hard...
oh hey: my tour goes to FIGI now, too!!
well, I'm done with that randomness now. I'm now down to 10 days 'til I'm done work, and and maybe only 11 'til I go home. My friend Cass maybe coming earlier: which would be amazing!! I'm so sad to say goodbye to some of these people...especially some of the women: it'll be real hard...
oh hey: my tour goes to FIGI now, too!!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Total Randomness
Well, hello there everyone. Miss Total Randomness is here: let's see what she'll say today:
well, I have only 21 days left until I leave: 19 days until I'm done work. Can you believe it? Can I believe it? Absolutely not!! I've only one assignment left to complete: an outline chart on the end times. That's it!! And I could be, perhaps, forever done with school work...though I doubt it... (maybe I'll even get tuesdays and thursdays "off" now...:0)
I've thought of going back to university to work with children with learning disabilities and mental disabilities. Yup, I'd almost be willing to go to university for that: but we'll see.
I still have not sent in my confirmation fee for the continentals. Sometimes I fear that it is not the Lord's will, but part of that is because I still haven't just dropped to my knees to just talk with Him about this. Gosh, I need to do that: for numerous reasons.
what else: NBBI has a new website: blew me out of the water!!
the show 24 is amazing: I encourage all to watch it. Well, it's especially awesome 'cause I'm from the states, so it's sort of personal with me I guess. Kiefer's awesome: Tony's the man too. Just ask any of my fellow C&C'rs about my viewpoints on the show. I love LOST too. But now it's starting to get a bit ridiculous...I may not watch it for too much longer.
Well, I really don't know what to write anymore.
----From the fingers of Miss Total Randomness----------
well, I have only 21 days left until I leave: 19 days until I'm done work. Can you believe it? Can I believe it? Absolutely not!! I've only one assignment left to complete: an outline chart on the end times. That's it!! And I could be, perhaps, forever done with school work...though I doubt it... (maybe I'll even get tuesdays and thursdays "off" now...:0)
I've thought of going back to university to work with children with learning disabilities and mental disabilities. Yup, I'd almost be willing to go to university for that: but we'll see.
I still have not sent in my confirmation fee for the continentals. Sometimes I fear that it is not the Lord's will, but part of that is because I still haven't just dropped to my knees to just talk with Him about this. Gosh, I need to do that: for numerous reasons.
what else: NBBI has a new website: blew me out of the water!!
the show 24 is amazing: I encourage all to watch it. Well, it's especially awesome 'cause I'm from the states, so it's sort of personal with me I guess. Kiefer's awesome: Tony's the man too. Just ask any of my fellow C&C'rs about my viewpoints on the show. I love LOST too. But now it's starting to get a bit ridiculous...I may not watch it for too much longer.
Well, I really don't know what to write anymore.
----From the fingers of Miss Total Randomness----------
Monday, March 28, 2005
Miscellanious
Hey ya'll: 27 more days...then I am done my "work" here. I don't actually leave for 29 more days, but hey. I'm pretty pumped...very pumped...but meanwhile, I have an Advanced Eschatology course that should have been completed already: but it's not. In fact, I haven't even finished reading the book yet. But it's deep: and I am actually trying to learn it....oh dear: "Senioritis" has once again, kicked in.
So last night my friend Mike pulled me aside to tell me that him and his wife were going to help support me by giving me some money so I can send in my confirmation fee. They're not paying all of it, but they will support me. And you know what? Instead of getting really excited (which I am...), I actually got really scared. It was a moment in which the Lord was like, "Ok Shauna: this isn't fun and games anymore: people are going to support you, so you need to be serious about doing this..." And I think I really am.
So the other night I strained my back: I hate--I loathe--back pain. I've pulled my lower back 3 times, the last time being down in NY this past summer--and totally slaughtered it. And this is the 2nd time that I've strained it here in PEI. This is ridiculous. I need to get in shape. The better the abs: the better the back. And you know what? People that have never pulled their back have no comprehension of how stinkin' annoyin' it is. Most of the time, you just want to cry 'cause it's so extremely frustrating.
One last thing: my friend Adam got baptized last night!! I was so excited for him!! Please, after you read this, just offer up a quick prayer for him to grow closer with the Lord!! And there was a man that went to watch him be baptized, and he's not saved, and he has a hard life. So please, pray for him too--for his salvation!!
So last night my friend Mike pulled me aside to tell me that him and his wife were going to help support me by giving me some money so I can send in my confirmation fee. They're not paying all of it, but they will support me. And you know what? Instead of getting really excited (which I am...), I actually got really scared. It was a moment in which the Lord was like, "Ok Shauna: this isn't fun and games anymore: people are going to support you, so you need to be serious about doing this..." And I think I really am.
So the other night I strained my back: I hate--I loathe--back pain. I've pulled my lower back 3 times, the last time being down in NY this past summer--and totally slaughtered it. And this is the 2nd time that I've strained it here in PEI. This is ridiculous. I need to get in shape. The better the abs: the better the back. And you know what? People that have never pulled their back have no comprehension of how stinkin' annoyin' it is. Most of the time, you just want to cry 'cause it's so extremely frustrating.
One last thing: my friend Adam got baptized last night!! I was so excited for him!! Please, after you read this, just offer up a quick prayer for him to grow closer with the Lord!! And there was a man that went to watch him be baptized, and he's not saved, and he has a hard life. So please, pray for him too--for his salvation!!
Thursday, March 17, 2005
I'M IN!!
Hey Hey hey!! I got accepted to the Continentals!! I'm pretty pumped!! really, really, really, really, really nervous and freaked out of my mind: but really excited to do this opportunity of a lifetime. Please, if you ever think of me, send a prayer to the Throne Room, k? thanks!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Seeing As How...
See as how I didn't write about my weekend at Halifax by now, I figure that I should. IT WAS A GREAT WEEKEND!! The teens did pretty well with the inner city kids on Saturday....but the inner city kids did pretty well too: apparently they knew I was an adult so they were a little different with me: but whatever. I love the challenge.
I spent most of my time with a little girl, Nakisha: and it broke my heart when my friend Julie told me that when she brough Nakisha home, she spelt pot. It's soooo hard to just let the those kids go back to that atmosphere. So if you ever think of her, please pray for her.
It's hard to believe that I have a little over 5 weeks before I leave. The time has flown by (although there were some weeks where I thought that time had purposely slowed down to get me). I should be hearing from the Continentals in the next day or so, telling me whether I've been accepted or not...so it's a little hard to just sit around. And I'm excited to go on "vacation" for two weeks.
I guess that I'm just sort of rambling now...so I'll end here.
I spent most of my time with a little girl, Nakisha: and it broke my heart when my friend Julie told me that when she brough Nakisha home, she spelt pot. It's soooo hard to just let the those kids go back to that atmosphere. So if you ever think of her, please pray for her.
It's hard to believe that I have a little over 5 weeks before I leave. The time has flown by (although there were some weeks where I thought that time had purposely slowed down to get me). I should be hearing from the Continentals in the next day or so, telling me whether I've been accepted or not...so it's a little hard to just sit around. And I'm excited to go on "vacation" for two weeks.
I guess that I'm just sort of rambling now...so I'll end here.
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
It's Been A While....I Know...
It's been a while, I know. Life's been busy and challenging. Between being sick off and on now for about a month, and just being plain busy and tired, I really haven't had the motivation to update this. Okay, so for the update:
Well, I'm applying for "the Continentals" (www.continentalsingers.org) which is a Christian singing and dancing traveling "thing". If accepted, I would do the fall tour, (sept-dec) and go to New Zealand and travel the southern states...I'd be pretty pumped about doing it. Scared crapless...but pretty pumped. Actually, my friend Heather and I (she'll be an asst. director for one of the trips) may travel out to Los Angeles and back together...so that would make me happy. Anyways, all that's left for me to do is to get some pics done and send them through email...anyways...
and this weekend, I'll be going to Halifax, Nova Scotia (I've never been there), to help lead some of the teens here do some ministry; to a youth group and for some inner city kids: pretty pumped!!
hey!! And my friend Andy (my best friend Bethany--her husband) just cut his first cd!! it's: ARISE:Live Worship (that's what he does--he leads worship conferences). Anyways, if you want to check it out, go to: www.ariseworship.com It's pretty sweet!!
well, that's about it for now. I think I have about 53 sleeps 'til I go back to NBBI to graduate. Pretty pumped...
"peace, out"
Well, I'm applying for "the Continentals" (www.continentalsingers.org) which is a Christian singing and dancing traveling "thing". If accepted, I would do the fall tour, (sept-dec) and go to New Zealand and travel the southern states...I'd be pretty pumped about doing it. Scared crapless...but pretty pumped. Actually, my friend Heather and I (she'll be an asst. director for one of the trips) may travel out to Los Angeles and back together...so that would make me happy. Anyways, all that's left for me to do is to get some pics done and send them through email...anyways...
and this weekend, I'll be going to Halifax, Nova Scotia (I've never been there), to help lead some of the teens here do some ministry; to a youth group and for some inner city kids: pretty pumped!!
hey!! And my friend Andy (my best friend Bethany--her husband) just cut his first cd!! it's: ARISE:Live Worship (that's what he does--he leads worship conferences). Anyways, if you want to check it out, go to: www.ariseworship.com It's pretty sweet!!
well, that's about it for now. I think I have about 53 sleeps 'til I go back to NBBI to graduate. Pretty pumped...
"peace, out"
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
I'm Back.
I'm back!! And it was such an absolutely, amazing, weekend. I was one of three leaders who took a group of teen to New Brunswick Bible Insitute (my school) for Conquest '05!! IT was awesome!! Actually, I believe that I got more out of the messages and teachings than the teens, but that's okay. It was awesome. I got to see my best friend Heather, which was really good...and I got introduced to some new people, which ended up somewhat changing my life: 1.) I learned that my priorities had become mixed up 2.)Don't judge people unless you know them and 3.) I have become "unreal" in my time here....I have allowed the "spiritual norm" here and amongst the people here to judge my spiritual state and say that it was okay: when it wasn't. Anyways...I think that my 4th year graduation will be the one in which I actually cry: and I'm not usually that girly.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
I Fell Asleep
Hi everyone. I know that it's been a while since I've updated: oh well!!!! I've been a bit busy getting my teens ready (and trying not to kill them) about this upcoming weekend for a retreat at my old school: NBBI. I'm so pumped!! And then, last night, I was with a few women (my favorite women in the world) planning an upcoming women's retreat in April, and we ended up watching American Idol and some other show, and then we shared stories and well, I didn't get to bed until after 12:00 a.m!! (and those of you that know me, know that that doesn't make me happy!)
so, to get to the point of the subject: I fell asleep for a couple of minutes at work today. I was reading "the Revelation of Jesus Christ" (book on Revelation), and I just had to put my head down. It was ridiculous!!!!!
Anyways, so, the theme of this story is: DON'T READ. just kidding. Just don't be like me: A person that needs 10 hours of sleep in order to function in ministry. hmph.
so, to get to the point of the subject: I fell asleep for a couple of minutes at work today. I was reading "the Revelation of Jesus Christ" (book on Revelation), and I just had to put my head down. It was ridiculous!!!!!
Anyways, so, the theme of this story is: DON'T READ. just kidding. Just don't be like me: A person that needs 10 hours of sleep in order to function in ministry. hmph.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Why Can't I See It, Too.
Sometimes, I just don't get it. I tend to have this problem: I'm just not happy with the way that I am. I am 22 years old and have had one year of "University", 3 years of Bible School and 1 year of ministry, yet I feel as if I am one of the most immature 22 year olds on the planet.
Adults tell me that I'm not: My friends tell me that I'm not: But I think that I am. Maybe my mom is right, and that I shouldn't get married for a really long time. You see, I'm mature in the "spiritual aspect" of life--but in the every day "paying the bills" sort-of-way, I'm not. (I don't even have my license yet!)
I've been told that my problem is, "I'm to hard on myself". Like, whatever that is. Usually the people that I think are hard on themselves are people that are mature. Whatever. And my other problem is, "I over analyze everything". And that, I know, is quite true. I analyze every conversation to death. It's ridiculous. And when it comes to the male species, it's even worse. But enough of them.
So that's it. Why can't I see what others see? Why would it be so bad, for just a split second, to see what others see? And the only answer that I can come up with is this: "His ways are higher than my ways, and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts."
And you know what? That's a good enough answer for me. (At this moment in time anyways.)
Adults tell me that I'm not: My friends tell me that I'm not: But I think that I am. Maybe my mom is right, and that I shouldn't get married for a really long time. You see, I'm mature in the "spiritual aspect" of life--but in the every day "paying the bills" sort-of-way, I'm not. (I don't even have my license yet!)
I've been told that my problem is, "I'm to hard on myself". Like, whatever that is. Usually the people that I think are hard on themselves are people that are mature. Whatever. And my other problem is, "I over analyze everything". And that, I know, is quite true. I analyze every conversation to death. It's ridiculous. And when it comes to the male species, it's even worse. But enough of them.
So that's it. Why can't I see what others see? Why would it be so bad, for just a split second, to see what others see? And the only answer that I can come up with is this: "His ways are higher than my ways, and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts."
And you know what? That's a good enough answer for me. (At this moment in time anyways.)
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
I Can't Believe It!!
I can't believe that I only have 2 1/2 months left!! I'll be sad, but I'm getting anxious to move on: just 'cause I want to know what the Lord has in store for me. BUT...the Lord hasn't even given me tomorrow...so I guess that I need to just live today to glorify God through the opportunities that He gives me.
I know that this was a short blog, but I just thought I'd update it...
I know that this was a short blog, but I just thought I'd update it...
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Christians Compromise Too Much.
Why is it that Christians compromise too much? Or at all?
Take for instance, the action of swearing. I know of non-Christians that don't swear, and find it offensive when people do. But what about Christians swearing? Why is it that so many do? There's really no need for it: how many millions of words are out there, and yet so many choose dumb words? Anyways...I find it disgusting.
And people have given me the excuse of "well, it's cultural". So what?? DO YOU NOT THINK THAT GOD DOES NOT UNDERSTAND CULTURE--AND UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE THINKING--EVEN BEFORE YOU SAY IT? Anyways...I'm just so sick of this compromising thing: especially in this area. NOW I'M NOT SAYING that I've never sworn, or that the words never enter my head, or that I never ever ever will for the rest of my life: but when the average (supposed) on-fire-for-God person uses curses in their every day talk: then the Lord CAN NOT be the person that they're living for. Our speech is to be "seasoned with salt", and swearing is anything by "gentle, good, loving, patient..." etc, etc.
Do you all get my drift?
well...thanks for letting me vent. I like this blog thing.
Take for instance, the action of swearing. I know of non-Christians that don't swear, and find it offensive when people do. But what about Christians swearing? Why is it that so many do? There's really no need for it: how many millions of words are out there, and yet so many choose dumb words? Anyways...I find it disgusting.
And people have given me the excuse of "well, it's cultural". So what?? DO YOU NOT THINK THAT GOD DOES NOT UNDERSTAND CULTURE--AND UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE THINKING--EVEN BEFORE YOU SAY IT? Anyways...I'm just so sick of this compromising thing: especially in this area. NOW I'M NOT SAYING that I've never sworn, or that the words never enter my head, or that I never ever ever will for the rest of my life: but when the average (supposed) on-fire-for-God person uses curses in their every day talk: then the Lord CAN NOT be the person that they're living for. Our speech is to be "seasoned with salt", and swearing is anything by "gentle, good, loving, patient..." etc, etc.
Do you all get my drift?
well...thanks for letting me vent. I like this blog thing.
Monday, January 24, 2005
My future.
so, guess what guys? I've been thinking about MY FUTURE--and it's okay!! I was talking with my best friend and my mother last night. And I've gotten really excited about my future! I know that I'll have to be in maine long enough to get my license (I know, I know), but after that--it may be New Hampshire--or Texas!! Exciting, eh? This is what I'm hoping anyways. I've been thinking about working in Bar Harbor for the summer too, but I don't know how that'll work out. I really need to get my license. Anyways...I just thought I'd update you all on me, and if you ever think of me, shout up a prayer, eh? Thank you you all!!
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Do You Think? Or do you Pray?
The Lord has been teaching me a lesson: Do I think? Or do I pray? Because You know what He's been showing me? That thinking IS NOT praying!! Sure, the Lord knows our thoughts: but that's not prayer! When He was teaching the disciples to pray, He didn't say, "Think about all your problems for a while"--He told us to say, "Give us our daily bread". In Philippians 4, Paul tells us to "think" on those things that are noble, and true, etc--because what we think will eventually become what we say and do!! So, instead of just THINKING about praying--DO IT!!
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Change is Inevitable.
well...hello there everyone. Just me, back again.
Can I just say that, when you know you're in God's will, and you know why you are, don't get all dumb by being distracted by things, such as the future ... that has been the biggest hindrance in my spiritual walk the last 4 months or so. and it's funny how, when God shows you one thing in your life that you need to change, that a lot of other areas in your life change as well. and I was reading my counseling textbook how as Christians: we need to embrace change as that is how we become Christ-like! No one can become Christ-like by staying the same all the time. We need not fear change (unless it's caused by sin) !!!! And although I am "scared" of the month of May (that's when "the rest of my life" begins!), I know that God has not given me tomorrow: so how can I live today, as if it was the last day of my life? Will I be a snob? Will I be selfish? Will I be unforgiving? Will I be lazy? Or will I be the Shauna that the Lord has called me to be today (or tomorrow, seeing how's it like 11 pm....way past my bedtime!)
well, that's just a little thought for you. And here's a suggestion: Whatever it is that you've been doing for devo's the last little while: change it up. Change is good!!
Can I just say that, when you know you're in God's will, and you know why you are, don't get all dumb by being distracted by things, such as the future ... that has been the biggest hindrance in my spiritual walk the last 4 months or so. and it's funny how, when God shows you one thing in your life that you need to change, that a lot of other areas in your life change as well. and I was reading my counseling textbook how as Christians: we need to embrace change as that is how we become Christ-like! No one can become Christ-like by staying the same all the time. We need not fear change (unless it's caused by sin) !!!! And although I am "scared" of the month of May (that's when "the rest of my life" begins!), I know that God has not given me tomorrow: so how can I live today, as if it was the last day of my life? Will I be a snob? Will I be selfish? Will I be unforgiving? Will I be lazy? Or will I be the Shauna that the Lord has called me to be today (or tomorrow, seeing how's it like 11 pm....way past my bedtime!)
well, that's just a little thought for you. And here's a suggestion: Whatever it is that you've been doing for devo's the last little while: change it up. Change is good!!
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
and.....she's off!
that's right! My friend megan is now in PERU!!!!!!!!!!! I'm wicked excited for her!
My break went pretty well....I watched a whole lot of movies the 2nd week, but it's all good....
today I move into my new place here on the island! A whole place to my self for a month? Can you believe it? HA!
well...that's my life the last few weeks. Hope you enjoyed it.:)
My break went pretty well....I watched a whole lot of movies the 2nd week, but it's all good....
today I move into my new place here on the island! A whole place to my self for a month? Can you believe it? HA!
well...that's my life the last few weeks. Hope you enjoyed it.:)
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