I'm Back.

I'm back!! And it was such an absolutely, amazing, weekend. I was one of three leaders who took a group of teen to New Brunswick Bible Insitute (my school) for Conquest '05!! IT was awesome!! Actually, I believe that I got more out of the messages and teachings than the teens, but that's okay. It was awesome. I got to see my best friend Heather, which was really good...and I got introduced to some new people, which ended up somewhat changing my life: 1.) I learned that my priorities had become mixed up 2.)Don't judge people unless you know them and 3.) I have become "unreal" in my time here....I have allowed the "spiritual norm" here and amongst the people here to judge my spiritual state and say that it was okay: when it wasn't. Anyways...I think that my 4th year graduation will be the one in which I actually cry: and I'm not usually that girly.

I Fell Asleep

Hi everyone. I know that it's been a while since I've updated: oh well!!!! I've been a bit busy getting my teens ready (and trying not to kill them) about this upcoming weekend for a retreat at my old school: NBBI. I'm so pumped!! And then, last night, I was with a few women (my favorite women in the world) planning an upcoming women's retreat in April, and we ended up watching American Idol and some other show, and then we shared stories and well, I didn't get to bed until after 12:00 a.m!! (and those of you that know me, know that that doesn't make me happy!)

so, to get to the point of the subject: I fell asleep for a couple of minutes at work today. I was reading "the Revelation of Jesus Christ" (book on Revelation), and I just had to put my head down. It was ridiculous!!!!!

Anyways, so, the theme of this story is: DON'T READ. just kidding. Just don't be like me: A person that needs 10 hours of sleep in order to function in ministry. hmph.

Why Can't I See It, Too.

Sometimes, I just don't get it. I tend to have this problem: I'm just not happy with the way that I am. I am 22 years old and have had one year of "University", 3 years of Bible School and 1 year of ministry, yet I feel as if I am one of the most immature 22 year olds on the planet.

Adults tell me that I'm not: My friends tell me that I'm not: But I think that I am. Maybe my mom is right, and that I shouldn't get married for a really long time. You see, I'm mature in the "spiritual aspect" of life--but in the every day "paying the bills" sort-of-way, I'm not. (I don't even have my license yet!)

I've been told that my problem is, "I'm to hard on myself". Like, whatever that is. Usually the people that I think are hard on themselves are people that are mature. Whatever. And my other problem is, "I over analyze everything". And that, I know, is quite true. I analyze every conversation to death. It's ridiculous. And when it comes to the male species, it's even worse. But enough of them.

So that's it. Why can't I see what others see? Why would it be so bad, for just a split second, to see what others see? And the only answer that I can come up with is this: "His ways are higher than my ways, and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts."

And you know what? That's a good enough answer for me. (At this moment in time anyways.)

I Can't Believe It!!

I can't believe that I only have 2 1/2 months left!! I'll be sad, but I'm getting anxious to move on: just 'cause I want to know what the Lord has in store for me. BUT...the Lord hasn't even given me tomorrow...so I guess that I need to just live today to glorify God through the opportunities that He gives me.

I know that this was a short blog, but I just thought I'd update it...